Who I was about 4 years ago is a totally different person from who I am today. There's been a drastic change in my mindset that has helped me enjoy my life better today. During the summer of my senior year of high school I found it fun to party with friends. I carried this behavior to college because I just wanted to have a "good time." I wanted to enjoy my youth, only to realize that I hated it. When the music stopped and the party was over, coming home to my problems seemed depressing. So if I could avoid going home alone I would. Either I spent the night at a friend's place or run to my superficial, romantic relationship.
I will admit it, I was desperate for "love" and attention. If I had to betray friends to get it, I would. I was a girl that was lost and broken in this world. I can recall feeling like I would give or do anything to be in a relationship. I often wanted to cut to the chase when meeting someone new. Were we going to be in a relationship, be boyfriend and girlfriend? I wanted to make it official.
For me, I found "happiness" in being in a "committed" relationship.
It came to a point where not only was I not happy with my life, I started wondering if I continued my life on this road where would I be in five, ten years, and the rest of my life. When I thought about where my life was headed it was very uncomfortable because I knew that I needed to make some major adjustments in my life. However, I knew I could not change my life on my own. So I began to seek after my creator, God. I used the desperation that I had for this world and turned to chasing after God. One of the best decisions that I have made was accepting Jesus and allowing Him to have His way in my life.
I kid you not, soon after I gave up everything I wanted and made a decision to put God first in my life, I began to see my life flourish rapidly.
I met my now husband, formed new friendships, and I've received many financial promotions through jobs. But most importantly, I know who I am. I understand my worth, I know my purpose in life, and I'm truly overjoyed with the life God has given me. I want to encourage you to think about how your life may be changed if you give Jesus the chance that I’ve given Him.
Sis, God wants you to be happy and to enjoy your life on this Earth. He has a plan and purpose just for you. ♥