Who I was about 4 years ago is a totally different person from who I am today. There's been a drastic change in my mindset that has helped me enjoy my life better today. During the summer of my senior year of high school I found it fun to party with friends. I carried this behavior to college because I just wanted to have a "good time." I wanted to enjoy my youth, only to realize that I hated it. When the music stopped and the party was over, coming home to my problems seemed depressing. So if I could avoid going home alone I would. Either I spent the night at a friend's place or run to my superficial, romantic relationship.
I will admit it, I was desperate for "love" and attention. If I had to betray friends to get it, I would. I was a girl that was lost and broken in this world. I can recall feeling like I would give or do anything to be in a relationship. I often wanted to cut to the chase when meeting someone new. Were we going to be in a relationship, be boyfriend and girlfriend? I wanted to make it official.
For me, I found "happiness" in being in a "committed" relationship.
It came to a point where not only was I not happy with my life, I started wondering if I continued my life on this road where would I be in five, ten years, and the rest of my life. When I thought about where my life was headed it was very uncomfortable because I knew that I needed to make some major adjustments in my life. However, I knew I could not change my life on my own. So I began to seek after my creator, God. I used the desperation that I had for this world and turned to chasing after God. One of the best decisions that I have made was accepting Jesus and allowing Him to have His way in my life.
I kid you not, soon after I gave up everything I wanted and made a decision to put God first in my life, I began to see my life flourish rapidly.
I met my now husband, formed new friendships, and I've received many financial promotions through jobs. But most importantly, I know who I am. I understand my worth, I know my purpose in life, and I'm truly overjoyed with the life God has given me. I want to encourage you to think about how your life may be changed if you give Jesus the chance that I’ve given Him.
Sis, God wants you to be happy and to enjoy your life on this Earth. He has a plan and purpose just for you. ♥
I have learned that this ten letter word known as, "Confidence" is important in my walk with Christ. However, I have also learned that my confidence cannot be found in my self worth, value, or even dictated by how others treat me. Truth be told, my confidence is found in God. Why? Because He is my creator, my redeemer, my healer, and so much more. The problem with having self confidence is that you're not stable enough to maintain this feeling of, "I can do this all by myself". When I have my confidence rooted in Jesus, I understand that no matter what, He is on my side and that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13) This is what's known as "Godfidence"--solely trusting and having faith in God to do whatever it is He has called me to do.
In the past, I would find my confidence in clothes, shoes, weaves and extensions, and however others treated me. God is always reminding me that having confidence in Him will lead to peace, joy, and love. I believe the biggest struggle that I faced was that I always wanted for people to stamp their approval on myself or whatever I had accomplished. The reality is, God has already approved me. I want to encourage you and help you to understand that your confidence can be found in Jesus Christ as well. This can be one of the most liberating moments in your life if you place your confidence in God versus the various things in this world.
"My confidence is found in Christ.
And with Christ , I can do all things.
I speak with confidence.
I walk with confidence.
I will be who God has called me to be.
I will not allow fear or the opinions of others to hold me back from what God has called me to do.
I allow my confidence to be rooted in my relationship with God, and not in the things of this world.
Today, I will do great things in His name.
A Woman's Worth
We are living in a day in time where many morals are diminishing. One of the most important morals is a person's self worth. Everyday I hear and see stories of women that are unaware of their value. This hurts me because I used to be one of them. I didn't know who I was or how much I was worth. Truth is, everyone on this Earth has been bought with a price. The kind of price that no one could ever repay. God sent his son, Jesus, to die on a rugged cross and pay the price for all our sins so that we may live eternally with him. The bible says, "For God *SO* loved the world that He gave His only begotten son, that whosoever would believe would not perish but would have everlasting life."(John 3:16.) That, my friend, is the definition of love. God gave His best because He so loved this world. But what might be the problem today? I know that I was unaware of the love that God had for me. If you, who is reading this blog were the only person on this Earth, God still would've sent his son Jesus to die for you. That's how much he loves you.
There are many women today who are trying to fill a void in their hearts that can only be filled by God. I can recall broken relationships, heart aches and pain because of my choice to chase after people to fill this void in my life. It was like pouring water into a broken glass, impossible to become full. What I am saying is that there's a place for God in our hearts and there's a place for people in our hearts, and if they aren't prioritized correctly, much damage and disappointment will occur. See, I went through all of the unnecessary road bumps along the way to realize that no man can love me the way God can. Truth is, God knew how much I was worth, and I can imagine Him looking greatly disappointed in the decisions that I had made. I bet all God could think of was how much He loved me and wanted me to know and receive His love.
Finally, I was done with what the world had to offer me. I put an end to chasing after the artificial love from guys who didn't know how to love and respect me. I wanted God to be the center of my life. I knew that with Him I would be more than alright. I went running to my Heavenly Father to set me free from all of the bondage that I had picked up throughout my life. But does it have to be this way with you? I want you to know that you are a beautiful woman who is worth the wait. The bible refers to women as wisdom. God created women to be wise and to have virtue. Proverbs 3:15 reads, "She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her."
We are women who cannot be compared because we are so valuable.
Below is a Declaration that I say aloud to remind myself of who I am:
"God loves me and I receive His love.
I am beautiful and I love the skin that I'm in.
I love everything about me.
God has created me with a plan and a purpose.
I am as bold as a lion.
I walk with confidence, I speak with confidence, I am confident.
I know who I am and whose I am.
I am happy for today and I look forward to tomorrow.
I know that God has good thoughts of me.
He has a plan for me to succeed and not fail.
I let go of any hurt, anger and bad feelings against anyone.
I'm free to be me! "
I'm not sure where you are in your walk of life. Maybe you're at a place of confusion, and uncertain about accepting Jesus as your Lord and savior. I encourage you to take a step and place your trust in Him. I would like to invite you to make a decision that I have made that has changed my life completely for the better. ❤
Please, say this aloud with me:
"Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for loving me. Thank you for sending your son Jesus to die for me. I believe in my heart and I confess with my mouth that God raised Jesus from the dead for me. Thank you for wiping away my sins to be closer to you. I trust you with my life and every plan in it. Jesus come into my heart and have your way in my life.
I am saved in Jesus name."
I want you to know that all of Heaven is rejoicing on the behalf of your decision to follow Christ. ❤️